Ankle again.

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Note: 30 days remaining.

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I've been thinking a lot last night. I couldn't sleep well cause of the flu too.


So I spent 3 hours rolling around the bed, it was awful. D:



I've been thinking about what I did last year, exactly last year. At that time, I've been training vigorously for the Hainan Cup with my mates. And that was before I got involved in that particular incident where I f'ed my right ankle D:

There were plenty of things I can do at that time... My passes and shots were unbelievably amazing, even for myself. My free kicks were simply outrageous. I sense a hint of narcissism.


Compared to this year, I couldn't even do half of what I did before. The continuous pain deriving from the inside of my ankle held me back, I couldn't do shots properly. I got so sad, I teared as I had images of it flashing in my mind.

As much as I tell myself that to dwell in the past and regretting for what you've done is a sin, I cannot help it but to call myself an idiot.

Why would I risk my life and leg to go for that ball on 090909 ?



Plenty of things have changed that night. Both physically and mentally.





I wanna go back to my physical state as I once were before. I refused to live like this. I've been playing soccer for my entire life, I don't want it to end this way.

I can only hope now, that my physiotherapist could remedy my torment. Please, I'd do anything to cure this injury.


Hopefully after the Hainan Cup, I shall take a break from sports and soccer for a while.







BUT! At the moment, I had to sacrifice my ankle and train for it. The pain has held me back from my free kicks and long range shots... I guess I had to suck it up and do my best.


God bless me. :|